idk whatsup with me

i have been feeling so shitty this week. im sucha big mess .. its causing me to become weak.
i guess partly the reason are finals .. no not really.
dance has really been a big stress.......
i'm looking for something to relief my stress and dance is not something that i can go to anymore.


i had my history final today .. i wasn't able to finish so i had to rush and guess. my english went better than i thought it would be. and of course my korean final... i did not know smack. ugh whatever.
i didn't see celo,kelvin, or jamie today . i SOMEWHAT KINDA MISSED them :( hahaha.

i just went home afterschool and i took a short nap. then ed came to take me to dance. thankyouuuu.

mm.. when i got to dance, things were not okay. seriously the not the way i wanted to arrive and not something i expected.
people are crazy .. or maybe i'm just crazy. who knows. probably. lawlz. fml.
idk about whs formal anymore. idk PERIOD. i just wanna get away from everything. i feel like i'm being put down . i feel as if the weight of the world is on my shoulders. i need that something or soemone to take all the worries away. you know i thought things were going pretty well. i could say life was good. but things just take turn of its own and everything can just go downhill.. i may sound super vulnerable right now. but idgaf. its how i feel and everyone has these days. i can't wait til these few months are over. and surprisingly i am NOT on my period. haha .. eh.

well tonight.. i talked to jamie for a good while :)
i finally organized my binder for bio too. so thats a super plus. wish me luck!